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  • love in time

    love in time

    notes on heavy raining days “I am a love theorist” is what Lauren Berlant wrote in mid-2012 on Supervalent Thought after the title “The Book of Love is Long and Boring, No One Can Lift the Damn Thing …” Their philosophical I moves through their own feelings of dissociating from all their loves—sometimes. They wrote: Read more

  • *sigh* *smirk*

    *sigh* *smirk*

    Dusting the weather; I checked my back, and my damn dear drenching sweating without pocari sweat. I swore to the sky that I wouldn’t write shit about coming back to Jakarta–oh lord here I am vomiting words. My grammar is rusty and my speech bubbles aren’t popping and yada yada yada, I always have reasons Read more

  • phase eight; for now

    phase eight; for now

    “What kind of history do I want to write?” is a constant question I’ve asked since day zero of my graduate studies in the US, knowing that I would turn my intellectual gear from policy analysis to history. It’s an inquiry about method and form, about questions I want to answer, all the things about Read more

  • phase seven; a call

    phase seven; a call

    Thursday morning in mid-December: a sudden call from a hospital. I was in my office, talking and having a casual discussion with Sofyan and Ridha about politics, dissertations, and everything else in-between. I didn’t pick up the call right away. I quickly sighed. The last time they called me, they moved an appointment (which I Read more

  • dari meja pembaca

    dari meja pembaca

    Pada tanggal 22 April, di tengah rangkaian protes kemah mahasiswa di penjuru Amerika Serikat, majalah Parapraxis menerbitkan artikel “The Campus Does Not Exist: How campus war is made” oleh Samuel P. Catlin. Dalam tulisannya, Catlin memaparkan secara historis tentang bagaimana gagasan, imaji, dan fantasi tentang “kampus” terbentuk dan termediasi oleh media dan institusi akademik di Read more

  • phase six; telltale

    phase six; telltale

    An artful life sojourned through a cliché: a young kid from an Old Town once tried to make staging theaters out of the world yet failed because their economy was just too cruel. Later, after two decades, a friend asked: “what would you do if you can?” “Maybe theater; a dying art in this country. Read more