Nik Setiadarma

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  • phase four; pacing

    phase four; pacing

    I kissed her goodbye a thousand times; and yet the gaze still sees her as part of me. It doesn’t matter anymore what I call myself. I can only write. Out of disaffection because what I have right now is responsibility to finish, to think, to answer, to sit with the past always for the… Read more

  • pada hari minggu ku turut rasa ke mana

    pada hari minggu ku turut rasa ke mana

    . . . . hari ini hari minggu ketiga bulan november; aku berjalan keluar rumah, mencari angin sore hari jika masih ada, sambil menggaruk ketiak gatal dari balik baju tipis, bulu-bulu tajam pada lipatan kulit mulai kembali tumbuh, mulai kembali mengganggu, sudah biasa; aku melangkah pelan, memaksa badanku bergerak sedikit lebih banyak, membuka gerbang rumah,… Read more

  • Impurity

    Impurity

    Thanks to Day, Mirna, Gita, and Bella for watching and discussing this movie with me. Cleaners (2019), directed by Glenn Barit, tells some slices of everyday life among Filipino high-schoolers in early 2000s. Weaving four separate yet connected mini-stories, the movie offers bitter-sweet, nostalgic youth of friendship and love, with sprinkles of politics, that allows… Read more

  • Fragments Incarnate

    Fragments Incarnate

    Pedro Páramo is a thundering grandeur. Non-linear narrative; yes, please. Population of characters who are conscious of their alienation; served. Latin-American literature through its history knows what to do with estrangement. (The last novel I read was Macedonio Fernández’s The Museum of Eterna’s Novel and I still remember the imaginary fireworks surrounding myself as I… Read more

  • under the sky, always new names

    under the sky, always new names

    Name changing; I constantly do that. I change the way I call myself. I changed my social media’s account names (from @/eunikeglr to @/quotidianemot to @/niksetiadarma to @/tukangmikwir). I changed my blog’s name and title (used to be a cringe “happyloner”); and by this second, I want to throw the name of this blog “quotidian… Read more

  • dari meja pembaca

    dari meja pembaca

    Sudah cukup lama saya menanggalkan kepercayaan bahwa membaca hanyalah untuk bersenang-senang. Apapun yang sedang saya lakukan sekarang adalah soal berusaha menjadi konsisten, mempertahankan kedisplinan sebagai kerja politik, terus menemui penulis dan buku dari berbagai tempat, bercakap-cakap dengan mereka melalui ruang imajiner, sekaligus berkonfrontasi dengan bahasa dan tulisan. Ada banyak hal di luar buku, bahasa, dan… Read more